KURT NEAL

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KURT NEAL June 2, 1984 - August 26, 2005 Well Kurt .... another 365 days we have continued on without you and it still SUCKS! How can we begin to say all the things that have crossed our minds in the years that have passed? It's truly impossible. Kurt .... we often say, it really is a blessing we don't know what our future is. On occasion we will drive by our 1st home on Moncton Avenue, there are so many memories there. We couldn't have continued if we knew that when we looked into your precious little face, that we would only have you for 21 years, the thought of it is UNBEARABLE, UNBELIEVABLE. Yes, we are all continuing to grasp at anything that might be a sign from you, our little Kurt. The extra bright sunshine shining down on little Charlotte, we know that's you getting to know her, keeping a eye on her. Charlotte can say Kurt or Uncle Kurt when she looks at your picture. Just as she is learning her ABC's .... 123's . She is getting to know you through our memories and photos. Bart and Jaclyn went away for a few days and missed Charlotte sooo much. Charlotte and Gram patiently waited for momma and daddy at the airport. To attempt to capture the moment when Charlotte and her parents eyes met is impossible, Bart was consumed with emotion when he held Charlotte in his arms and she melted to him, literally becoming one. The void was filled, a calmness, a family again. Just as it is impossible for us to attempt to explain the void in our lives. We need to have our Kurt to hug him, hold him, become a family again and we can't because you're gone. So many times having to hold back our tears is a struggle, we can't hold them back all the time nor do we want to. There are occasions when we let the flood gates open and there are times when we are crying internally, crying to ourselves, there is a war going on inside. Lucky our eyes don't always show what is going on inside of our hearts. We need some Kurt time ... our Kurt time is a memory ... a smell ... a song and the list is endless. Kurt you missed out on being a husband, dad, uncle, we need our son, Bart needs his brother and Charlotte needs her Uncle. You've been gone for seven years, seven years and we only had you for 21 years. Sometimes it seems like you've been gone for ever ... so much has happened and continues to happen. Life continues on ... we often think hey how can everything/everyone continue on when you're gone? God has you and is watching over you and we take comfort knowing that and we are all grateful for the continued blessings we have each day, we have each other, Bart, Charlotte, Jaclyn, friends, health, happiness. We love you the whole wide world and we know you love us more ... just as you use to say ... Keep on Keepin on Kurt ... Love Charlotte, Bart, Jaclyn, Dad and Mom.

As published in Winnipeg Free Press on Aug 25, 2012