KURT D. NEAL

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KURT D. NEAL Holy Cookie 10 years 10 years Without you I went to write our annual note to Kurt O. As a mother having to go to a storage area in the lower level of our home to get a memory box of her child is Wrong. There you were! Not Literally, because that would have been amazing. A box on a shelf read, "Kurt's Memories" in a RubberMaid Container, in a Container. Our precious package, all that is left of you is a RubberMaid Container. How do you put into words how Wrong that is, difficult, yes to put into words and to even have that thought. Throughout the year, there are special little verses to aid us in our grief. If not in written form, it's in the spoken word. 3,650 days, 87,600 hours we haven't seen you, smelled you, talked to you, touched you, hugged you, kissed you, You're Gone, Gone, such a powerful word. Even more powerful of a word, ForEver, but we will see each other again in Heaven, your new home. They say you learn patience as you get older, well we can't be patient when it comes to seeing you again, Kurt. We do take comfort in knowing that you are in Heaven, we could not cope if we didn't have Faith and for that we are grateful. As time passes we cannot say it gets easier, it doesn't. It's different, so different. Of course you pop up when we least expect it, what triggers it, we will never know, but we so enjoy it and long for more pop ups. Some of your friends have had dreams about you Kurt and we are privileged that they share them with us. It has to be said, IT IS NEVER ENOUGH AND IT NEVER WILL BE ENOUGH. Another struggle for us is to attempt to introduce you to Charlie and Cheek. Of course Cheek is too young but Charlie said I don't even know what Uncle Kurt looks like? Wow how true! How honest! As we all are and feel cheated that we only have memories of you Kurt but at least we have memories. Charlie and Cheek only have our memories, through our eyes. NOT because you've died do we say this, BUT you would have been an Amazing Uncle Kurto, as you were so many kiddies adopted U. Kurt at the young age of 21. 21 you will remain forever, so young. Kurt we shed so many tears in your absence looking through photos, how glad we are that we didn't know that we would only have you for a brief moment and that is exactly what it feels like. For selfish reasons we only think of ourselves. What about you Kurt, you were a baby, son, brother, toddler, teenager, young man, boyfriend, friend but you never got to be a husband, dad, uncle, in law or a Grampsy. We will attempt to be grateful that we have experienced everything you missed and appreciate each of them. Again you are teaching us even in you Absence. Again this SUCKS writing to you, oh well we have our Prayers and we know you are listening. Love you the WholeWorld We love you this Much

As published in Winnipeg Free Press on Aug 26, 2015