HELMUTH BOEHM

Condolences & Memories (5 entries)

• Two months and two days and it will mark three years since you are gone. Not a day has gone by where I don't think of you, or something you have said or done throughout my growing up. The seasons change and time keeps marching on, no matter how badly I wish I would want it to stop. It's three years and I still have not been a leader to go through the entire grieving process. I am angry that yet again I feel cheated by having someone taken away from me. I feel lost and unsure because I don't have that male guidance and reassurance when you were still with us. Words of encouragement and stability meant so very much coming from you. I had piece of mind even when we didn't see eye to eye in things. Values and the way we grew up were some of the greatest gifts you and mom gave to me. Those things molded who I am and helped me to face a lot of things and made it ok for me to be able to stand alone if I thought I was right. For all those lessons, both verbal and literal I am eternally grateful. It's sad that things like loyalty from 2 or 3 close friends and not family is what we have in common as a father and daughter. I will take and run with that and feel ok with it because so far I have only seen that from a few in your group as is in my group. The last 2 years have weighed heavy on me emotionally and physically. I still have the drive and the fight because of my promise to you. Days do come and sometimes in a row when pulling the pin would be a option when the pain is unbearable. I could and would never because of mom. Alot down days at times, because I just can't get things out of my head. I know you told me to control what you can and don't mess with what you can't control. Easier said than done, I guess when I figure out how to make that happen I might be able to sleep at nights. I know you don't hear me when I talk out loud to you, but it helps me get things clear in my head. I chuckle to myself when have something remind me of you when either I do something you had done or have said. I am proud to be able to fall in that category when it happens. "THE DAD MOVE". As I look up into night sky, I hope that I will get that chance to see ya one day. Just know I soooooo love and miss you for myself and for mom. I love ya dad!!! I miss my time I had with you and your hugs!!! 💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💌 - Posted by: Ursula Boehm (Daughter) on: Mar 30, 2019

• Winter is here and the cold reminds me of those words you used to say to Mom. Hunny when are we going south? I used to be happy when you and Mom could get the help out a this cold weather and sit and relax in the sun for weeks. Mom and I talk about the little dogs you babysat in Mexico and we laugh at how cute it was that a big guy could cuddle a little chihuahua and show much gentleness and love to something so small that couldn't talk. Close people like your friends and Mom and I knew you loved us and your family ALWAYS came first no matter what. I am forever grateful to you as a father, a husband to Mom, a teacher to me over the years and as my parent. It's only 4 more months that will mark 3 years I have not been able to hug you or speak to you face to face. Many times I don't sleep as thoughts and memories run through my mind. Tears of sadness and tears of loneliness of not having a father and watching the grief in Mom's eyes soak my pillow case. Time keeps going and I know we have to keep moving, but things don't seem to at times become any less easy. I do the best I can both for Mom and for myself. That promise I made is still up held. My word has always been good when I have given it. I love more than words or thoughts could ever express. Love Ursy ⚘⚘⚘⚘⚘⚘⚘ - Posted by: Ursula Boehm (Daughter) on: Jan 25, 2019

• This year has just flown by in a blink of an eye. Each week I come with mom to see the wreath we had put up for you, even though you can't see it. We sit and talk about good times we shared with you and alot of times we sit and cry together. I stand N stare into the clouds in the sky trying to gain my compare and wonder how I might of helped you be free from pain and still be able to still be here with us. I cry for mom too, she cries at nite while I have stayed over nite. I pray that I can comfort the pain and sadness she feels in her heart. I pray for alot of things lately, hopefully I am not doing it in vain. I do the best I can and am trying to keep what you asked of me the day before you left us. It will be 3 years next year and still feels like yesterday when we lost you. I want you know that I love you with my whole heart and will forever till my time comes to leave this world. I miss you sooooooo much dad. I love ya❤❤❤❤❤❤❤💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕🐕🐕🐕🐕 - Posted by: Urs ( Percy ) (daughter) on: Dec 18, 2018

• Many nights I sit & look into the sky and try to find the stars. Tears flood down my face. I close my eyes & picture your face and remember many great memories you helped make during my years growing up. Oh how I wish I could have taken the tremendous pain away for you as the years went on. I would have traded places with you on a drop of a dime no questions asked. I so miss the father and daughter times when we hung out. I always felt so cherished & loved by you as a father. I always remember the times when you told me that be good to yourself & look after yourself, that time will always keep going on and you don't want to go through what I am you said. I have kept my promise so far that you asked of me before you passed. I cry in my heart silently as I look into mom's eyes. She so misses you that my heart can barely stand it. She loved you then and will always LOVE you as I will. The road without you has been a lonely & sometimes unbearable. I do my best but sure could use that advice and hug I used to get from you. Love you till eternity & miss you more than any words could describe. Love Urs (Percy). - Posted by: Urs ( Percy ) (daughter) on: Oct 27, 2018

• It's almost 2 yrs that have gone by and I still feel the pain in my heart as if it were the same day as you left this world. I have tried to keep my promise to you as you had asked of me the day before you passed. It has been a long, lonely N trying road emotionally since you passed. I often come to talk to you N miss those times when you would give me advice N a hug. I hope that in some way that you might hear those words from me that I miss you so much N I would have done ANYTHING for you so you could stay N be with mom pain free. I will do my best to follow through with my promise you asked of me. I MISS you sooooooo much N love you to eternity xoxoxo - Posted by: Urs ( Percy ) (daughter) on: May 06, 2018